Tuesday, March 31, 2009
OUT WITH RAM~
it was fun with her company. had a long day. went chinatown to find her super cheap and nice skirt. haha. was damn beat by 10plus. its 10plus! the time when i'm e most active. omg. im really able to see e change in me now. ha! hmmm. anyway, am really happy with my life now. its really more meaningful. i do things dat i feel like, dat i wants to and of cos no one will say NO!
it was fun with her company. had a long day. went chinatown to find her super cheap and nice skirt. haha. was damn beat by 10plus. its 10plus! the time when i'm e most active. omg. im really able to see e change in me now. ha! hmmm. anyway, am really happy with my life now. its really more meaningful. i do things dat i feel like, dat i wants to and of cos no one will say NO!
*dinner at chinatown~
*this is e chef of e cafe la ~ he's a bodybuilder. ( nude shoots posted too )
feel kind of happy. jimmy actually called me today. felt relieved. im still e one he turns to when he needed help. at e very least, we could still be frens. was really happy over this fact. anyway, he actually even asked for his birthday present. and my fren went like ' he was so cruel to u dat time. ignoring ur msges, telling u off, saying dat its ur own problem not his, didnt even bother to do sumthing when he noes u never eat for one whole day. SO WHY E HELL ARE U STILL BOTHERING ABT HIM AND HIS SO CALLED OWN PROBLEM? tell him to get his hazel to get him one! ' haha. i'm like so lost for words at dat very moment. its quite true, but i really dunnoe. haha.anyway here's some past photos. just so random. didnt have a happening enough reason to post them.
*outside arena on a friday night
* driving night out with JOLINE~
yes, she's e one driving my aunty's car. i'm like so scare la! my heart oso jumped out~ haha. luckily, it came back in a piece.
Friday, March 27, 2009
i'm kind of stupid ~
hmmm, change my blog over from xanga to blogspot. and i really felt its so hard to handle. i'm still not able to solve e photos thing. give me some time ah.
okay, things for me now is real fine. i'm starting to enjoy my life already. and i seriously wish him and hazel e best. oh ya and my buddy too. gary and serene. =) cheers ~
hmmm, change my blog over from xanga to blogspot. and i really felt its so hard to handle. i'm still not able to solve e photos thing. give me some time ah.
okay, things for me now is real fine. i'm starting to enjoy my life already. and i seriously wish him and hazel e best. oh ya and my buddy too. gary and serene. =) cheers ~
Saturday, March 21, 2009
tell me dat i'm still the one in ur heart
seems like the one in his heart is no longer me.there's really nothing i can do anymore.his mind is made, and there really seems to be no way we can be tgt again.may be its really time to let go.
take care, my dearest.
seems like the one in his heart is no longer me.there's really nothing i can do anymore.his mind is made, and there really seems to be no way we can be tgt again.may be its really time to let go.
take care, my dearest.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
depression~
seriously think i'm gonna suffer depression soon. i'm going crazy soon, at least. tats i'm for sure. i really seems all fine and happy on e surface. but deep inside, i'm really really breaking down.
he knows wat happen to me and andra, i think. now the r/s seems even harder to save. i broke his heart badly. he used to trust me so much yet i ... i've betray his trust. and i really felt so guilty abt it.
I'M REALLY SORRY! dats to my dearest baby.
anyway he seems happy without me. i dunno if he's putting up a mask or wat. but its all my fault dat things turn dis way. i didnt noe he's so important to me, i took him for granted. i'm really regretting for all e sins i've done.
* i'll give up anything just to have him back by my side.
he doeant have to trust me , or love me like before. he can show me attitudes, not meet me everyday. anything, he can treat me real mean, but i really don mind. i swear! i just wanna treat him double the way he used to dote on me in e past. as to repay my sins and shows my love for him.
he msg hazel asking her to go lookers find him and accompany him to a songka. and hazel even have e cheek to ask me if i think he's serious or wat. even thought, i noe dat he wont be tgt with any same company staff, but it just makes me feel weird. may be jealous, or angry, i really dunnoe, just weird. it matters to me alot. but i really cant say or do much. may be its my retribution. cos of joanna case. they actually mistaken me as the third party, when he had another gf after joanna den me. i've lost joan dis nice fren for him. now, i've lost both. and he actually deleted all my photos from his frenster acct.think dis time really e end for us ler. hais.
Loving someone is so hard, keeping it a secret is even harder.
seriously think i'm gonna suffer depression soon. i'm going crazy soon, at least. tats i'm for sure. i really seems all fine and happy on e surface. but deep inside, i'm really really breaking down.
he knows wat happen to me and andra, i think. now the r/s seems even harder to save. i broke his heart badly. he used to trust me so much yet i ... i've betray his trust. and i really felt so guilty abt it.
I'M REALLY SORRY! dats to my dearest baby.
* i'll give up anything just to have him back by my side.
he doeant have to trust me , or love me like before. he can show me attitudes, not meet me everyday. anything, he can treat me real mean, but i really don mind. i swear! i just wanna treat him double the way he used to dote on me in e past. as to repay my sins and shows my love for him.
he msg hazel asking her to go lookers find him and accompany him to a songka. and hazel even have e cheek to ask me if i think he's serious or wat. even thought, i noe dat he wont be tgt with any same company staff, but it just makes me feel weird. may be jealous, or angry, i really dunnoe, just weird. it matters to me alot. but i really cant say or do much. may be its my retribution. cos of joanna case. they actually mistaken me as the third party, when he had another gf after joanna den me. i've lost joan dis nice fren for him. now, i've lost both. and he actually deleted all my photos from his frenster acct.think dis time really e end for us ler. hais.
Loving someone is so hard, keeping it a secret is even harder.
Never say u love me if u dont really care,
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really thea,
Never hold my hands if u really gonna break my heart,
Never say u r going to if u dun plan to start,
Never look into my eyes if u r going to lie,
Never say Hi if u really mean GoodBye,
If u really mean foever, Then say u wil try,
Never say forever coz forever makes me cRy.
Monday, March 16, 2009
我需要你的爱
当你选择了云的距离就让我自私做的决定冲破天际飞去排山倒海崩塌的回忆也许我可以袭击我的心痛得不能自己或许你以为把这一座城市抛开就可以纠结伤害却不明白我需要你的爱不管多少阻碍不求什么未来不管命运会怎么安排我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪狠狠地把心痛了断深深地把一切重来我需要你的爱像掉进了深海也像坠落悬崖找不到地方逃开别让那些谎言把爱给活埋当心碎成一块一块当爱碎曾一断一断我会等待你的爱哦~~~排山倒海崩塌的回忆也许我可以袭击我的心痛得不能自己或许你以为把这一座城市抛开就可以纠结伤害却不明白我需要你的爱不管多少阻碍不求什么未来不管命运会怎么安排我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪狠狠地把心痛了断深深地把一切重来我需要你的爱像掉进了深海也像坠落悬崖找不到地方逃开别让那些谎言把爱给活埋当心碎成一块一块当爱碎曾一断一断我会等待我会等待我会等待别让那些谎言把爱给活埋当心碎成一块一块当爱碎曾一断一断我会等待
i really need u badly.
i simply doesnt want things to end up dis way between us.
its all my own fault. my own doings.
so now, he really doesnt want me anymore. here's really a fullstop to our story.
i'll respect his decision and get out of his life totally.
this is the only thing i can do right now.
i pray dat he'll be happy and safe everyday.
he used to be my everything. i didnt realise dat i love him and needed him so much.
only till when everything is too late.
i took him for granted.
and i'm really really regretting.
* god, pls keep him safe everyday.
当你选择了云的距离就让我自私做的决定冲破天际飞去排山倒海崩塌的回忆也许我可以袭击我的心痛得不能自己或许你以为把这一座城市抛开就可以纠结伤害却不明白我需要你的爱不管多少阻碍不求什么未来不管命运会怎么安排我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪狠狠地把心痛了断深深地把一切重来我需要你的爱像掉进了深海也像坠落悬崖找不到地方逃开别让那些谎言把爱给活埋当心碎成一块一块当爱碎曾一断一断我会等待你的爱哦~~~排山倒海崩塌的回忆也许我可以袭击我的心痛得不能自己或许你以为把这一座城市抛开就可以纠结伤害却不明白我需要你的爱不管多少阻碍不求什么未来不管命运会怎么安排我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪狠狠地把心痛了断深深地把一切重来我需要你的爱像掉进了深海也像坠落悬崖找不到地方逃开别让那些谎言把爱给活埋当心碎成一块一块当爱碎曾一断一断我会等待我会等待我会等待别让那些谎言把爱给活埋当心碎成一块一块当爱碎曾一断一断我会等待
i really need u badly.
i simply doesnt want things to end up dis way between us.
its all my own fault. my own doings.
so now, he really doesnt want me anymore. here's really a fullstop to our story.
i'll respect his decision and get out of his life totally.
this is the only thing i can do right now.
i pray dat he'll be happy and safe everyday.
he used to be my everything. i didnt realise dat i love him and needed him so much.
only till when everything is too late.
i took him for granted.
and i'm really really regretting.
* god, pls keep him safe everyday.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
i miss him badly.
i'm so wrong. tot i'll be happier without him. it was all my stupid mistakes.
i really miss him badly now.
miss the way we quarrel
miss e way we talk back to each other
miss e way he gives in to me
miss e way he dotes on me no matter wat i've done
miss him cuddling me to bed
miss him squeezing me to one corner
miss him tickling me
miss him blocking my views when watching shows
miss him buying me supper
miss him cooking for me
miss waiting for him at lookers
miss him sending me to work
miss him asking me not to stress, just try my best
miss disturbing him
miss him waking me up from sleep everyday
miss drinking lemon tea tgt
miss him looking at me eat supper
miss him snatching the comp with me
i miss thailand with him
i really wish time can turn back. he's out of town now, at bangkok. the tot of him being so far away from me is just so unbearable. with his character, can we start all over again?
i just wants to tell him ;
baby, its just u dat brighten up my life.
baby, u're e only one i need, u holds the key to my heart.
baby, i'm really really sorry, i've realize my mistakes. i'll never repeat dem again.
baby, for our future n u, i'm willingly to give in and change.
baby, i really loves u.
baby, can we start all over again?
baby, i need you.
i'm so wrong. tot i'll be happier without him. it was all my stupid mistakes.
i really miss him badly now.
miss the way we quarrel
miss e way we talk back to each other
miss e way he gives in to me
miss e way he dotes on me no matter wat i've done
miss him cuddling me to bed
miss him squeezing me to one corner
miss him tickling me
miss him blocking my views when watching shows
miss him buying me supper
miss him cooking for me
miss waiting for him at lookers
miss him sending me to work
miss him asking me not to stress, just try my best
miss disturbing him
miss him waking me up from sleep everyday
miss drinking lemon tea tgt
miss him looking at me eat supper
miss him snatching the comp with me
i miss thailand with him
i really wish time can turn back. he's out of town now, at bangkok. the tot of him being so far away from me is just so unbearable. with his character, can we start all over again?
i just wants to tell him ;
baby, its just u dat brighten up my life.
baby, u're e only one i need, u holds the key to my heart.
baby, i'm really really sorry, i've realize my mistakes. i'll never repeat dem again.
baby, for our future n u, i'm willingly to give in and change.
baby, i really loves u.
baby, can we start all over again?
baby, i need you.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Just got hm not long. had a long and tiring day. hate the way my life is now.
I appear to be enjoying and having lots of fun, but nobody knows e pain i'm suffering and enduring deep inside. i'm really confused by myself. i dunnoe wat is it dat i'm really looking for in my partner. other then dat, my future.
Its really time to start planning. time to put all other stuff to the back of my brain. wahaha. ( can do it anot! ) sometimes even me cant really believe wat i said. hais.
Hmm anyway, find dat nowadays guys are like weird. they keep one sided thinking dat u're his gf. haiyo. rumors been spreading dat i've a new bf!! dat really amaze me. really so surprise to hear dis crap. haha.
I wanna go overseas!!!
I appear to be enjoying and having lots of fun, but nobody knows e pain i'm suffering and enduring deep inside. i'm really confused by myself. i dunnoe wat is it dat i'm really looking for in my partner. other then dat, my future.
Its really time to start planning. time to put all other stuff to the back of my brain. wahaha. ( can do it anot! ) sometimes even me cant really believe wat i said. hais.
Hmm anyway, find dat nowadays guys are like weird. they keep one sided thinking dat u're his gf. haiyo. rumors been spreading dat i've a new bf!! dat really amaze me. really so surprise to hear dis crap. haha.
I wanna go overseas!!!
